Overwhelming preparation. I’m up to my eyeballs in lists. To do lists. To pack lists. To prepare lists. I’ve had a mental block lately. My mind keeps putting everything I need to do at the bottom of the list. Now we are out of time and I’m going to have to get things done.
Overwhelming fear. I think that one is self explanatory and a normal feeling when your child is approaching major surgery. I have zero control over what happens and how this story unfolds. My hope through this is in Christ alone. I know that no matter what, He is still God. I’m fearful of going without Rob. I’m fearful of Henry hurting. I’m fearful of him getting sick before we get there. I’m fearful of weather hindering our travel. I’m fearful I won’t get to the place we are staying before the staff is gone for the night. I’m fearful of how this will all affect the girls. I’m fearful that Emily won’t do well on her spelling tests without me to help her. I’m fearful that Olivia will convince Rob that she is allowed to wear a crazy girly outfit with dark red lipstick, I’m fearful that the plumbing will back up at the house like it does sometimes... and I’m fearful that I won’t get to bring my precious boy home. That’s a whole lot of fear. Overwhelming indeed. All of these fears though, I lay at the foot of the cross and ask for God to carry me through it.
Overwhelming support. This one has caught us off guard. Don’t get me wrong, soooo many of you have supported us in countless ways since we first decided to adopt and boy, are we grateful! If you're reading this. You're amazing! Thank you for loving us! It's been amazing since we knew we were headed to Boston. A few people suggested we do a shirt fundraiser and just see if it we could do enough to help maybe just buy one plane ticket or help with housing or even a meal or two. 135 shirts and $1700 later we are blown away with the generosity of people we know and love and some we don’t even know! Y’all I can’t even... 🥰 One family, that we know through our adoption journey, gifted us with a new (amazing) stroller. Others have sent us gift cards for coffee, money, and so many friends and family have asked if they could add us to their church’s prayer list...ps. the answer to that is always yes! ;-) We are also so incredibly grateful that our good friends, and Godparents to our babies, are getting on a plane and flying to Boston to be with us while we go through this crazy adventure. Y'all the support we've received is humbling and... well... overwhelming. We truly know God is with us and walking us through this, because of you.
Lastly and most overwhelmingly...
Overwhelming Love. If there were a better, more, expansive word i could use besides overwhelming i would definitely us it for the Love part. We have continually felt God's presence through the Love y'all have shown. Thank you for being Jesus to our family. Thank you for caring about our adventures. Thank you for your Love.
Now.... I better go pack or i'll be overwhelmingly tired tomorrow night
With Love, Jenn
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