As this year comes to a close my heart is overflowing. Yes it's had some hard stuff, some down right crappy stuff and yet it has been full of beautiful beautiful stuff.
This is the last New Year's Eve we will be the Taylor 4. I'm excited , overwhelmed, thrilled and scared looking forward. I look back at our journey and how much I complained about our path when we first started fertility treatments. I complained that God wasn't listening... that He didn't care what WE wanted. Y'all I hate when I'm wrong but boy was I wrong. I'm grateful for every. Single. Tear. For every single day of heartache. All those days paved the way for this. For two BEAUTIFUL girls finding their way into our hearts and lives. For us seeing Gods calling in our lives and being totally honored that we have been called to this. If it wasn't for these two angels and all the people we met along the way God wouldn't be making way for number three.
I wish I could open my heart and just let you all look in. There are so many things I cannot put into words. God has blessed me far more than I deserve. He has truly given me the desires of my heart. Yesterday the girls and I were spending time with friends and I drove our 5 year old friend and Emily while Livvy rode with my friend Sheila. I listened to Emily and Morgan talk about where Morgans mom was (driving in front of us) where Emily's mom was (sitting in front of her). Emily then told Morgan about how she went to get ice cream with "my mommy, my daddy, my mei mei.... I went with my family. " For some reason that touched a deep part of me. We are her family. Because God tolerates a whiny, demanding, doubting girl in Snyder Texas... ok I know He loves me but I've got to be on his top ten most annoying-wish-she-would-just-trust-me list.... because He wanted to give me more than I even knew to ask for, my life gets to be overflowing with proof of God's AMAZING grace in two little faces that bless my socks off every minute of every day. How great is the Father's love for me! I'm so grateful that God gave us a family... that he gave us them. Maybe I am looking back at 3+ years ago when my sweet girls did not have a family. We did not have them and how from opposite sides of the globe... he made #teamtaylor. That's amazing y'all. Amazing.
The best part... He's not done. In a matter of days we will be getting on a plane to meet our third blessing. Yesterday we received travel approval. Yep. We are going to China! Soon! We won't know until Tuesday for sure but it looks like we are leaving January 11th! God willing.
Please pray for Henry. For God to prepare his heart and for him to somehow know us. ( I know this sounds like a strange prayer but I prayed it every day for the girls and I swear when they handed me Livvy and she looked in my eyes.. she knew me somehow) pray that the girls will be covered and prepared for there being another little in the Casa. Pray our finances will come together. Pray for my mom as she tackles a HUGE task in taking care of two littles for 2.5 weeks. Pray for our flights and in country travel. I'm terrified of leaving the girls for this long and far.
I'll let you know Tuesday if it's all systems are go.
Until then... Happy New Year!
Oh... and there's a few hours left to get a Tshirt!
With Love,
Jenn
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