There have been many a sleepless night... That's to be expected, but when it arrives it's still hard. We are pressing through, obviously. It was much easier when Rob was home but my mom has been a life saver!
It's hard to put into words all that is unfolding. First of all, I've had MANY parenting fails. In my defense, most mommies get 10-12 months of practice before the little one becomes mobile. I've had to hit the ground running. They're fast like lightening and I need to grow eyes in the back of my head. Just when I think I know where they are.... Ha! They're up to something. I might need some new running shoes too!
We ventured out on our first trip to the grocery store with only the three of us. It went well but to keep the littles cooperating I may or may not have let them consume several cookies in the store to help with enjoyement of the trip. It's tricky getting two in and out of carts and car seats but I'm learning. I thought i was going to have to arm wrestle another lady for the double kid cart... I could hear her kids saying "Mom, we need that cart" while I quickly put my girls in... I didn't acknowledge their pleading.. hey.. i needed it worse than they did. Ha!
Today the girls "played" together for the first time. E is a loner, she likes to do things on her own and O is usually 3 feet or less from me. They play a lot but not usually "together", it was pretty exciting to see them start to connect. It's a process but I've been hoping for this moment every day.
I am so blessed. I'm learning as much as they are but at then end of the day, i'm amazed. I have the two most beautiful daughters and when their eyes meet mine, or they run up and reach for me... my heart melts. I keep catching myself thinking "I HAVE KIDS!! THESE LITTLE PEOPLE ARE MY PEOPLE" ... It's kind of like when Rob and I got married, I couldn't believe I was married... these important milestones are so hard to wrap your mind around and then one day you wake up and just feels normal.
The magnitude of this blessing is more real to me each day. In our fertility Dr.'s office there's a poster of how conception happens and the stages of how a baby grows in very detailed step by step pictures. It's amazing. On one of our first visits we both looked at each other and wondered how in the world it could ever happen....yet people get pregnant and have babies all the time. All of these steps have to line up just perfectly for it to happen. Conception and birth truly are a miracle. Lately I've thought a lot about that poster. If I were to make one of our process... I'm pretty sure it would give that poster a run for it's money with complicated steps and sheer miracle. I think of all the little things that fell into place, all the people He put into our path.... It makes my heart burst b/c I realize (more fully) the depth at which God loves me...us. I'm humbled... and a little ashamed that I didn't trust Him more completely throughout everything.
When I worked at the Church in Florida, I would OFTEN ask the kids "Where have you seen God lately" If I were to ask that question of myself now, it would be an easy one to answer. aside from my seeing in the faces of my beautiful children, I see him in every "like", every comment, every card in the mail, every email, phone call, and visit by the house to see for yourself the blessing/miracle that has impacted not just our lives... but all of your lives as well. Thank you for showing us the Love of Christ in those ways and even sharing our story.
It amazes me how many people are following along, people that I don't even know. At the ER last week with Emily the woman that did the xray said she was with her daughter at a water park in Big Spring, TX. (That's about 45 min from Snyder)... well she was sitting next to a woman who had a Chinese daughter and was from Midland, Tx (1.5 hours from Snyder) and when she said she was from Snyder, the lady from Midland told her she had a Facebook friend that was currently in China picking up her two girls that was from Snyder and shared our blog, and she had been following. LOL.. what are the odds? Someone that knows my neighbors stopped by when they saw us outside and said they had been praying for us and had to meet the girls. It's the body of Christ at work in a way that I've NEVER seen... and I've seen some pretty amazing stuff over the years, especially after working in ministry for 9 years!
The adventures get more exciting every day... thanks for joining along. I promise to try to keep it interesting... and take more pictures!!
Much Love!
The Taylors
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