So... we might have a problem. :-)
Rob is at fault too. He INSISTED we get the dress on the right. I loved the one on the left too. Thank you TJ MAXX for letting us buy these cute dresses for cheap and then also for letting us return them when we have buyers remorse. I'm guessing on her size. I know she will be small for her age and these little dresses might be too big but... we'll try anyway! She's gotta have clothes, right? :-)
I'm reminded that while my mind is in "adoption mode", there is life going on around me. Crazy, scary, sad, stressful, busy, complicated, hurtful, joyful, happy, wonderful...life.
I'm so conflicted these days. There's my step dad and his health issues... started with Cancer diagnosis last February and watching and helping as we rallied around him while he went through treatment much of the spring and summer. Rob and I held the fort down here in Snyder. Taking care of the pack of dogs (babies) we have between two families as well as their house and yard. My mom in Houston with Joe...standing by my step dad while he struggled through treatments and all the feelings I can't imagine you feel when you're diagnosed with Cancer. For the second time in your life. My Mom.... what a saint. Seriously. What an example she is to me. Standing by her husband, sucking up her feelings and pain while she helps him deal with his. I know my mom. I know when she's hurting, when she's sad. I also know... that she never says a word about it, she never complains. She worries about me and everyone around her. Man, I hope I can be more like her! Now Joe is in the hospital again. Having some nerve/spinal cord problems. Most likely related to the Chemo/Radiation treatment and we are back at square one with the healing/helping process. I'm not complaining... well maybe a little, I'm human... but I get this is where we are. For such a time as this. We keep moving forward, hoping for reprieve, for healing.
Then there's work and the day to day stuff that bogs you down on a daily basis. The stuff you're ashamed to complain about when you hear about the strife and struggle in other's lives.
Then there's the JOY that surrounds the struggle, hurt & pain. The joy of a dream come true. I'm fully aware of the incredible GIFT we are being given with our sweet Emily Katherine. I'm hyper sensitive to the realization of prayers being answered left and right. There is NO doubt in our hearts that God has placed Emily right into our lives. None. She is an answer to prayers on Every. Single. Level. One day I'll blog about all those "levels" but know that it's amazing.
So while i want life to stop until Emily gets here, there's much to be accomplished, much to be learned. Somehow between now and Gotcha Day, I've GOT to learn how to be organized. How to plan ahead. How to make less than 12 trips to the grocery store per week. :-) HA! In the midst of all the learning there's the struggles that slow us all down. We fight through it and embrace it all as part of our "lesson".
Today marks 29 days since I sent off for our USCIS approval to adopt from a Hague Convention Country. I SWEAR... it seems like I put it in the mail yesterday. She will be here before we know it and I pray that God prepares her heart for this crazy bunch that loves her to pieces already! She is the hope in our darkness. The bright, sparkling, shining light that leads us away from the difficult parts of life to the wonderful.
With Love and Perseverance.
Jenn & Rob
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